10 Hear, Lord, and be merciful to me;
Lord, be my help.”
11 You turned my wailing into dancing;
you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,
12 that my heart may sing your praises and not be silent.
Lord my God, I will praise you forever.
Mastering life requires the ability to ride out the good with the bad. I know I’ve blogged about the many challenges I have felt throughout this adoption journey. But let me share with you- God is good and definitely meets us where we are.
Throughout this journey, I have been overwhelmed by the seemingly little gestures that have left a huge footprint. God has brought amazing people into our lives at just the right moment. I know I am going to leave some of those moments here- just know that if you have reached out to us at all throughout this past year, that you have been a part of this journey with us and have a huge impact.
It’s when gestures come from the most unexpected places that I literally step back and know that God is at work. I wanted to take a moment to share some of these with you because this journey has had as many ups as it has downs.
As soon as we were approved by our 1st agency, our rescue dog’s foster family dropped off a baby book – specifically designed for adopted children- for us to document every first moment once we are placed with our child. The gift was accompanied by a children’s book detailing the process of a polar bear taking a baby brown bear into her care and raising it as her own. Knowing our heart for interracial adoption, this was especially encouraging and hear warming.
Most recently, when I felt as though I was in a dark spot, our church’s daily emails took us through the Psalms- reminding me of David’s suffering and that God never left him- He heard David and met him in his darkest places.
One of the challenges I have not shared is the cost of this process. We have saved for this since our wedding day and are very fortunate to have planned ahead. When considering a change in agencies, cost was the limiting factor that kept coming up in our many discussions and quite honestly, is what stopped us from changing course 6 months ago. Well, recently we decided to move ahead with a new agency and make some small sacrifices to increase our adoption budget. I received a call from our church one day asking for the address and name of our agency so they could send our check in. I was confused and stunned! Turns out, there was an anonymous donation made to our church that was to go to a family who was in the process of adopting and our church thought of us. To this day, we have no idea how much that donation is for- and it doesn’t matter. What matters is that God is with us and is reassuring us.
The owner of a fitness studio I coach at stuck a small bracelet with a card attached to it explaining that this bracelet was a reminder to keep “a little bit of faith” inside my paycheck envelope. The timing of this was perfect and is now a daily reminder to keep the faith, have patience and courage to trust in God.
We received the amazing news that we have been approved by our new adoption agency 12 days ago. Actually, right before I left for a 10 day trip out of state. The timing of that email was perfect to keep anxieties at bay during this trip and bring peace that this process continues to move forward. We arrived home yesterday to find a package addressed to us from the consultant we met with – encouraging scripture and a journal to document our adoption journey for our child to have some day- to know that they were so very loved before we were even matched.
The timing of these things are God’s way of letting us know that we are not alone. He hears us. Our cries do not go unheard. And while I’m not particularly fond of the answer to wait and continue trusting… I have peace knowing that God is at work. Our child is being formed and God’s plan is always the most perfect plan.
We now have more paperwork to fill out, documents to collect from our previous agency and more reference letters to request. We are so anxious to get to the next stage and to be shown to birth mothers, that it is easy to be frustrated by all the “must-do’s” in order to get there.
For those of us that have been praying with us, please pray that we will have the courage to continue to trust God. And to all of you- a sincere thank you for your prayers.